I am getting close to the arrival of our daughter. This should be a fantastic time but I feel full of nerves and anxiety. I am so excited to see this bundle of joy but so scared that she is going to be taken away. People always say to me that I shouldn't get anxious over things that are out of my control but how can I not??? The control freak wants control and needs to accept that control is an illusion. Things are going well with us. It was a hard road financially and emotionally since Livia passed but things seem to finally be on the up. We are so thankful for that but I can't seem to just let go and let whatever is supposed to happen, happen.
I have been trying to go to my daughter's grave but I can't seem to get my car there. I get on the road, make it about half way and then can't seem to make it the rest. I haven't been there in forever but I feel like that she is not really there. She is here with me and my family.
Liam is thriving and I am wondering how her is going to take to having a baby in the house. He is the baby right now and is a complete mama's boy. I hope he isn't too jealous and doesn't act out too much. It is going to be an experience having a 21 month old and a newborn at the same time. I am not worried about Isabella. She is older now and such a helper that she will be great.