On June 24, 2008, I lost a 32 day old baby suddenly. I battle the loss everyday all the while trying to balance my life with a career and my other children. Not a day goes by that I don't cry for my sweet Livia and long to see her again.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Rainy Night
I am enjoying this rainy day and night. On rainy days I love to lounge around and not really do anything. Of course on days like this, my sweet Livia dominates my mind. I spent the day working on my Masters projects and playing with my children. I love that. My son was so snuggly today. He isn't snuggly much anymore now that he is almost 15 months so I will soak that in as much as I can. I held him and thought about my Liv. I see so much of her in both my children. My heart was more joyful today thinking about her. I ached for a while but I mostly thought about the days I was snuggling her and it brought a smile to my face. Anything I think of to do for her in mind is not grand enough. I could fill up an olympic stadium with people to remember her and that still wouldn't be enough. I could build monuments in her honor and dedicate buildings but that still isn't enough. Such a sweet, innocent soul that blessed our lives for such a short time. What a gorgeous angel she must be. I wish she would come and visit me in my dreams. I know she is all around me all the time but I want to see her. I want to see her in a way that is not a vision of that horrible night. One day I will, I know it.
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I am so glad thoughts of her brought you joy today! I hope there are more and more days like this in the future for you! Thank you for sharing! SMOOCHES! - Sharon
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